my judgement.

I get mocked for this? A page I made to jot down my thoughts both relevant and unnecessary but my thoughts never the less. I don't do this to gather fame but rather to inform people of my opinion. Yes I do appreciate views and readers but not so I get a minute amount of attention but because It's a confirmation that I am being heard.

This has given me an identity. People know me for this. People talk to me about this, enquire about it and interact with me on the bases of my thoughts. They take on board my perspective on certain matters. They appreciate what I have to say.

The fact that anyone would bring my blog into account when mocking me means I am achieving what I set out to do. It means people are listening and watching and reading me. It means they have considered my thoughts. It means they have spent their own time reading what I have to say. I have been a factor in their lives but to me they are no one. The only people I consider in my thoughts are adults who have an opinion on my opinions regardless of wether they agree or not.

Oh but Ahmad your'e talking about them right now? So you have spent time on them too?

"them" being those who insult me for doing this.

No. I have not spent time pondering the thoughts of individuals but instead a group of people, a type of people. People who use this blog in an attempt to hurt me.

I am not hurt, I do not care. I will carry on doing what I do. None of those people are as persistant as me. They may dislike what I do, insult me for what I do, judge me for what I do. When they write or say comments I am at the forefront of their thoughts but when I speak or write I too only consider my self. Thats what makes me laugh. Thats why I am unaffected by shallow remarks becasue as much as they hate me or find what I do amusing, they think about me. I am in their thoughts. To them I am somebody, to me they are nobody. 

For all those who have listened to what I said and appreciated my writing, thank you. Regardless if you agreed or disagreed. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. 

But to those who try and insult me for doing this know that I don't define me self based on the thoughts of others. I am what I am. If you don't like me or what I do then simply don't read or listen to what I have written and know that by reading this very post to the very you have spent time on ME, I won't spend a second on you. Not unless I have to.